Ever since I started working, been hearing much abt marriages, husbands, in laws and more. One common statement stays edged somewhere in my mind.
I didn't take it too seriously until now.
"You won't have to worry abt keeping your figure. You will do it for your wedding day. You will."
I joined California Fitness 3 weeks ago. Every week, I go to the gym at least 4 times.
Each time, I run at least 15 minutes on the treadmill and join the cardio classes, like zumba and bodycombat.
Sometimes, I run abt 3.5km.
I never ran more than 2.4km during my heydays - when I was 45kg.
Now, I am 56kg, have 30% of body fats, not to mention flabby arms, saggy butts, radish legs and a michelin body.
I skipped dinner for the past one week (hmm... 'cept for the weekends cos' there was partying and proposal and... romance makes me fat.)
I have never been more serious than now. I took my 43kg~45kg figure for granted.
before
I was 18. I asked myself, "What are the chances that I will hit over 50kg? I have 5kg more to play with!"
Now, I quietly swallow every word I said.
I recall those post graduation gatherings. Each of them held abt several months apart. Each time my ex classmates look at me in awe.
I bet they were thinking how I have mutated every 6 mths.
Even new friends whom I met after graduation... they saw my growth.
If any of my ex bf can still recognise me on the streets, t h e y w i l l b e l a u g h i n g t h e i r e v e r y h e a d ( s ) o f f.
Dread.
Sometimes I feel embarrassed going out with my fiance and his friends, 'cos I'm the biggest (size) female among them. And oldest. Although, with the help of technology and make up, age is now a mystery. Botox helped abit abt my big, flat face, though it doesn't seem to last.
Sigh. Can't believe I used to wear Petite dresses. Now I am L.
I have only less than a year to go before my pre wedding shoot.
I must peservere.
Target weight by end 2010 = 50kg
Target dress size by end 2010 = S ~ M
Target waistline by end 2010 = 26ins
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